Sunday, October 25, 2009
My ATM card is stuck in the machine!!! arghh!! I am broke this week le. Have no mean of withdrawing money. So here I am left with 2 bucks in my wallet this weekend. Ohwell, it even better I suppose. Shall save my money this week. hee . My english paper is tml. And I have a "dunno wad going on" feeling abt tml. The feeling of going to exam is so shitty. I HATE this feeling!!
Stuffs I painted @ 4:51 PM
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
There seem to be so much emo thoughts to blog. But then, I just couldn't put them in sentence and words. Shall have it down next time bahx.. hahaha.Anyway anyway, I am having my NYAA (gold) this coming friday eh! FINALLY waiting for 1 whole yr le.. lolx. Been thinking whether I do deserve the award anot. I didn really feel much nw that I gonna recevie the award eh. or has it been too long that I have forgotten the feeling of completing all the section in the booklet?? If someone were to ask me what I have gain after the completion of the project, I most probably will be stunted for words. OMG!! Its a emo period all over again. Ha! that me after all huh!! Reflecting on myself all over again le.``perhap the reason why i been working so hard is just to cover up for my short-coming~
Stuffs I painted @ 6:56 PM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Was having an emotional struggle last week. Perhap I just can't sort out certain things. Somehow I wasn't sure of why the big emotional stir up. I have to keep check of myself I suppose. I simply just hate making decision. It just make my emotion go haywire. argh!!Certain people are just being too defensive. And story has become distorted. HATE THIS!! Is it right for me to remain silent? Or am I suppose to voice out what others has done? Seriously I don't think this is called commitment, but the responsibility as a commander. Be it in NS or is it in society, isn't it how we are suppose to work? I simply don't understand. Or perhap I am just the odd one out.Some people say that it isn't fair at all to me. Why am I doing all the shit job when other can relax in bunk and bla bla bla. It totally sound like I am the victim and I am being bullied. But isn't it suppose to be the way? I guess I get more emotionally involve with the platoon just like when I was a CI that I get more involve in the unit as well as the area.But I just simply hate the idea that you only do work when you are on duty. I am being force on 1 day off. But.. . .. Don't wish to care anymore..Conclusion: I am weak!!
Stuffs I painted @ 9:50 PM
Saturday, August 08, 2009
Lota thoughts, lota comment, lota questionsand lota lota everything . Its jux seem hard to pen it down. Can we jux accept it cox its jux part of life??
Some random picture::
Stuffs I painted @ 10:18 AM
Sunday, July 19, 2009
My birthday is over. Appreciate those that wish me either through facebook or sms or in one way or another.. thank you very much for remembering eh! Anyway I enjoy myself for the advance celebration that I have. Thank you eh! But still, I spent another yr of my birthday in camp. hahaha.
Stuffs I painted @ 5:11 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
APPRECIATED!!
ThankS .
~actually i can anticipate wad is coming . its jux that.. .``its seem that i have loss the ability to aim straight . the ability to balance myself . and the ability to focus . need some HELP!!! arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!
Stuffs I painted @ 11:58 AM
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Have the urge to swim this week . but I didn due to my laziness . hahaha . anyway, I shall have a swim this coming thursday if I manage to book out by then. ha! and I haven manage to watch Transformer. Missed lota chances to watch it this week due to some wadeva reason . yah! and I shall download it and watch instead bahx . Its a form of saving money eh! hmm . taking about money, I realise I am really really broke le. Needa pay for my insurance, my TP test still hanging there rotting away, and I have to repay back my poly fee. OMG! how am I suppose to save up if this goes on???!!!!!!!!!Anyway, sometimes things happen the least you expect them to . and usually it is for the worse . haiz~ its another tough week ahead in another 4 to 5 hrs time . wad I can say now is, jiayou bahx yw!! hahaha .Feel a sense of acommplishment this weekend!! yeah!! I finally completed what i ought to complete a few week ago. hahaaha . There is nth to be proud of anyway . lolx . Designed my own personnal calendar to be brough to camp, completed the IT file which has been pile up for ages and I manage to come up with a new BGM cert design . *clap for mi* hee .hmm .Somehow . somewhat . I couldn't see what is ahead of me. what will happen to me after I ORD?? has been told last week that we need to have a direction, a purpose in life and what is actually the key that make us a edge above the rest when we find a job?? Perhap, all along I been leading my life aimlessly . so . wad is it that I actually want?? I been searching the net for a suitable course in the uni that I wanted to take . but somehow or rather, I couldn't visualise what is gonna become of me after that few years time .Perhap all of us need to have a goal, a purpose in life . It will give us direction from which we are moving . and that wad I believe in . I shall keep on searching, and searching for the answer I wanted. And right now, I shall do the best in wadeva I need to do!! -smile-
Stuffs I painted @ 2:22 PM
